Health and Fitness

Things are changing. I'm finding myself thinking more. About what I'm eating. Yeah McDonald's tastes good, but gives me a stomach ache. I have a personal trainer now. Ex football player for the NCAA. He pushes and it hurts but it feels great when we're done. He demands my best. I don't want to be fat anymore. I'm going to change, but it's going to take time and I'm afraid of losing my motivation. (Although Marquell tends to be a good motivator) I'm scared. But something somehow has got to change.

Peace

I'm peaceful. I don't mourn E.C. quite as badly as before, I don't mourn my failed relationship, I have peace. I have more affiliation with people in the Word than I have...ever. I lost two people in my life this week though. Saying what I believe on Facebook and just making comments in general made them upset with me. I was called selfish and rude and careless. I was told I "cram" God down someone's throat. Having a conversation about faith and God to me is not cramming anything anywhere. I worry so much about my friends who aren't saved. One said "It's not like you're a minister" I replied "Not yet but I am working on that." I finally stopped the fight on Facebook because it wasn't getting us anywhere. I finished with I love you. I really thought I'd be sad about it... I'm not. i feel unburdened to not have to constantly try to "people please". I also stopped communication with two people who believe they are christians but acted the opposite. They used my kindness against me and that is my biggest downfall. I used to think that once the hand of friendship was dealt I was lucky to have a friend. I never realized that sometimes we are to let go. It's hard to give emotionally and any other way to people who cannot help uplift you. So I can say I was blessed this week to have several large burdens removed in the shape of people I love. I can now say "Whatever Lord" because I'm leaving them in His care. God is merciful. ~Jesus Loving Princess