Our trip to Idaho

Well Sarah and I left Friday morning to head to Idaho. We were hoping to get to Winnemucca and spend the night then finish the drive Saturday and go to church with Jeremy Saturday night. We made it to Donner's Pass and I put the chains on the truck as required. I put them on the front because I am used to front wheel drive vehicles and I guess I'm an idiot. I had them checked by California State chain check crew people guys and they said they were fine. ANYWAY~ I heard a horrible sound and my engine died and I started sliding backward. I got the truck to the side of the road and stopped and went out to investigate. The chains had ripped through the firewall and shredded some wires. The harness was a mess and evidently the wires controlled the fuel pump and the ABS and stuff. Important to have working on a vehicle. Well a tow truck came by and told me and Sarah to stay in the truck while he loaded it. Then he got in his tow truck and Sarah and I rode in my truck on the flatbed all the way to Nyack. He finally let us out and put us in the cab of his truck where there was no seat belt for Sarah. He said it wasn't necessary. I rigged her into mine. He towed us back to Colfax and dropped Sugar (my truck) off at the mechanics which of course was closed, and took Sarah and I to the only motel in town. After, of course, I paid $350.00 to be towed 25 miles. The next morning we woke up and the mechanic told us that the part would have to be ordered since it was discontinued and that it would take until Thursday at least to get it. Sarah and I boarded a bus headed to Boise at 2pm that afternoon. The Nintendo DS only amused her for so long.... 31 hours later we finally made it to Boise. Sunday night. We spent 8 hours in the SLC bus terminal and then we spent another hour because there was a problem with the bus. We made it safe and sound to Miss Marie's house by 9:30 that night and went to bed. We had a wonderful week while we were in Boise. Took some friends out to lunch, took Sarah, Christian, Aubree, and Nick to Chuck E. Cheese, and spent some nice time with Miss Marie reading books, buying books, talking and just chilling. Jeremy and Miss Marie drove Sarah and I to Winnemucca where Mom met us and took us to Colfax from there. Sugar came through with minimal damage and I was elated to get my truck back. On the drive home I spent some quality time with the Lord about things that were weighing on my mind. And of course praise that we made the trip unscathed. I miss Idaho.

My Tragic Lament.... LOL

The letter never written
The things never said,
The tears never cried
Are running through my head.

So many times I wanted,
Simply ached to say
"I love you and I miss you
I needed you today."

There were times that I desired
The strength to reach to you
To be the first to bridge the gap
Separating me from you.

But something always stopped me,
A fear, a doubt, a sigh
Deep down I knew it was inevitable
That you would say goodbye.

Jen Grimm 20 April 2010

Ode to the Ex(es)

Just a funny little poem I wrote... unfinished but still fun.

There really is no simple way
To say what's to be said.
"I've failed you, or you've failed me"
"There's moments I regret."

"You're too loud, and mean and cruel"
"It isn't you, it's me."
"I'm focused on my job right now"
"It isn't meant to be"

"I'm in love with someone else"
"Your mother is a pain"
"You want kids, I don't, you lose"
"There's nothing left to gain."

"I never meant to break your heart"
"I'm sorry you are hurt"
"I want to be your friend, I swear
For whatever that is worth."

"I'm scared of you, I'm scared of love"
"I'm just too scared to try"
"You'll never be enough for me"
"I've found another guy"

"Don't love you now, I never did"
"Just wanted in your pants"
"I tried to tell you so many times"
"Can't give us one more chance"

To these men I have to say
I loved you each one time
But you've given me some thoughts today
I've even made them rhyme.

Jen Grimm 27 April 2010
Come on that was pretty witty! An original ode to the exs.

Prayer

God whispers my name
Just as gently as He can.
He breathes strength upon me
When I don't think I can stand.

His arms are opened wide
For me to step into.
When I don't think I can
He says "I'll carry you."

My Jesus my God is there
When the light fades from my eyes.
When my heart begins to grieve
It's really no surprise.

He wraps me in His warm embrace,
He puts His hand beneath my chin,
He gently coaxes then waits for me,
To raise my eyes and talk to Him.

It doesn't matter what I say
Or the emotions I go through,
He'll listen to me for hours,
Absolutely any time I choose.

I can lay down my confusion
I can give Him all my sorrow,
I can cry to Him in anger
For all my fears about tomorrow.

His fingers sweep across my cheeks
To brush the tears away,
He's my Dearest Comforter
When all I feel is pain.

His hand stays out to steady me
Until I think I've found my feet.
He's the song inside my heart,
Played in every single beat.

He's my Master and my Savior
My very Dearest Friend.
And when I'm finished here,
In His arms is where I'll end.

Jen Grimm
22 April 2010

April

Well.... God is merciful and full of grace for sure. I decided to be smart/stupid and buy p90x today. It should be here in a couple of weeks and I guess we will see how that goes. I think I'll start a whole new page for that. I added hours to my schedule so now I am working 132 a week. I thought it would be too much for me but I'm doing it for several reasons. I'm pretty happy with my life right now. Fell in love and got my heart broke. At least I know I am capable of falling in love and I know Im not afraid to do it. I was working harder to save for the future I thought i could have. Now Im saving for the future I can have. i just have no clue what it is. About 10 minutes ago i ordered my first course in Biblical Studies and am so excited to get it and get started. My God is amazing! He really has my back. Well off to bed ladies and gentlemen.